it’s almost four. I have work in three hours. damn shouldn’t have staye dup this long xD
"Well I can’t give her what she had but I can try to give her the next best thing. I still will carry this for the rest of my life whether people forgive me or not. I’m not expecting some sort of forgiveness. Can’t you get that through your skull?! I’m just wanting it to she can get what she wants again, but fine. I’ll go ask her myself. You are no help." Tris stated angrily as she looked at him, thinking about what they had before. He had almost been a father to her and that was spoiled. He was the only one she trusted and now she had no one. She bit her lip, tears coming to to her eyes before she turned and started to walk away.
"Maybe you’re the one with the thick skull, what she wanted was her son. You are never going to give him back to her. You can’t just trade a child for another. It doesn’t work that way." He was getting irritated by her rambling and disgusting self loathing. He was tired of it. "Grow up. Really, just grow up. Crying isn’t going to make me help you. "I hope you understand now the gravity of what you’ve done. What you did had more consequences than you realized." he called out to her. "Don’t ever come back to me with a stupid idea."
"If disfiguring my body means that your daughter can have children again then yes. Isn’t that what you want? to have grandchildren? Don’t you want to be able to give your daughter that ability again Whale? If you could just try it. Or look into it. Please." Sheo begged, looking into his eyes. I know somewhere he is a loving father and not a complete asshole. She thought as she waited for his answer.
"It’s not about what I want it’s about what she wanted. She wanted to have the little boy you butchered in her body. She wanted, him. Not what you’re giving her now. But again it’s not up to me. It’s never been up to me. If it were up to me, I’d tell her to say no to you. I’d rather her just adopt than to have anything more to do with you. If we’re being honest here." He loved his daughter with all his heart. And he would never give this thing the satisfaction of ever feeling the lightness of being forgiven. "What you’re asking for is impossible."
"No. I’m not. Apparently you don’t know me either. If I thought that doing this would allow everyone to forgive me like that, or a sorry that doesn’t make me childish. That would make me naive. I don’t think that though. I’m doing this because I’m trying to make it right. Not to get people’s attention but to do it because it is the right thing to do. Now you said that the only way to do it was to curse me for life? In what way?”
"So completely disfiguring your body makes it al-right? That’s the right thing to do, ripping a body organ out. " He just was tired of her childish antics, "That was a quip. It’s not real. You have to start listening to people, you’re mixing sarcasm with sincerity."
"King guy? Do you mean my father?" She shook her head. "I was just trying to think of something to help. So what if I’m over dramatic. At least I’m not heartless. Yeah we’ve all done some bad things, but it’s what we do now that makes us who we are." She sighed. "Is there any way that I can give my uterus to her? Or anything? I’m not asking to see her again. Just. To help make it so she can have children again. It’s not like I need it anyways." She stated as she held in the bitterness of being alone. "Just please. Tell me without criticizing me more. I already know I’m terrible. I get it."
"Yes, your dear papa that you stabbed by innocent daughter for." He replied, "No, you were thinking of ways where you will be even and possible people might let it go. It’s childish, like expecting an apology to make everything better. You’re not three years old. An I’m sorry, doesn’t fix jack shit. Being a martyr for something you did in the first doesn’t make you a better person. ——no, not unless she wants it to put in a stew for black magic to curse you for all your life. " He rubbed the bridge of his nose. "Are we making this about you, now? It’s not like I need it; please tell me you aren’t trying to get sympathy points here?——" he nearly laughed, "I never stop criticism, I thought you knew me?"
"What do you want me to do then? You said to neuter myself so I said okay and I am met with more insults? Do you want me to die? Is that it? Do you want me to just kill myself? Is that what you want Whale? Because otherwise you aren’t helping. I’m trying to find a way that will help and you aren’t helping!"
"You are very over dramatic, since when did my criticism of your actions steer to me wanting you dead? Death is easy, life is hard. If anything I’d want you to live a long healthy life with the weight of what you did on your shoulders. Think practically for once, will yah. Second, It was a quip. It’s up to you if you want to make it so you don’t have any children. Unlike the choice you gave to my daughter. I am helping, I’m telling you that my daughter would never agree to you being anywhere near her again. And that -that king guy would skin you alive if you even tried to come near my daughter."
"You know what, never mind. You don’t have to want anything. Do whatever you want. This is officially nothing more then two.. friends, I guess.. Having a baby. If anyone asks, that’s what we’ll tell them. We won’t try to get to know each other any more, we won’t ask questions, we don’t even have to talk."
He almost broke out in laughter. Victor had been waiting for her to define what they had for a while now. “You want something more, don’t you? Why didn’t you say that from the beginning.”
"I already said that I was sorry, and I wish I could change it but I can’t. If you just wanna yell at me more with things we already discussed then go ahead." Tris looked down and crossed her arms as he told her to get neutered. She didn’t believe she deserved to be loved. Who would want to marry her? She shook her head. "Fine then. Do it." She narrowed her eyes at him. "Can’t you do that? Just give my uterus to her." Tris clenched her fists as she stared at him.
"You made a grave mistake, don’t ever think things will ever be over. You killed a child. That’s not something people are going to just wash over like you just broke a toy. You killed a life. A life." He shook his head, "You’re an idiot, and you think that will make you even?"
"Fine, whatever, I’m sorry okay! I’m sorry I was curious, and was actually joking, but I’m sorry!… I’m sorry that I literally don’t know what you want from me other then this child!"
He rubbed the bridge of his nose. “I asked you—no I warned you if you wanted to go there. Why do you always have to push the subject?——-What do you want me to want?”